INTJ

So, I just randomly decided to take one of those Myers-Briggs personality tests. I know I took one years ago, but I couldn't remember what type I was, I wanted to know where I would fall on this list I found on Facebook: What Each Myers-Briggs Type Does At A Party.

It turns out, I'm an INTJ, and I would be taking scheduled hydration breaks in an attempt to reduce the impact of the inevitable morning-after hangover.

That's totally inaccurate, but there were a few things on the personality analysis that seemed about right.

"Independent, goal-oriented, and resolute, you tend to have very clear notions about how the abstract ideas that you nurture in your head should be turned into reality. Once you have determined what needs to be done you throw yourself at the problem with an unyielding decisiveness that thinks little of other people's skepticism and reservations. Being extremely independent and strong-willed, you tend to simply ignore it when people protest that your plan is "impossible." Living in a world of ideas and strategic planning as you do, others rarely have the prerequisites, intelligence, or competence to offer solid correctives to your plans anyway. They rarely plan ahead and optimize as extensively as you do, so it is natural that they won't understand the full magnitude and importance of your schemes until you actually carry them out and convince the world otherwise."

I mean, look at all the planning and strategizing I'm already doing for this trip. I've been planning out each day. I checked out several websites and downloaded several apps to do it, and determined which ones were superior. I've been studying the tube maps and figuring out how I'm going to get around. And I've already discussed all the researching and shopping I've been doing. I was feeling crazy, but now I can just say, "Hey, that's just how I am."

Just kidding. But it does give me a little boost, I have to say.

Except for the part where I'm also clueless in romance, arrogant, judgmental and overly analytical. But I already knew all of that.

I mentioned to my oldest friend, who also happens to be my boss, that I had gotten my passport. He then asked me whether I had everything booked. I know I've told him I had before, but he must have either not believed me or he wasn't listening. He said, "Wow, I'm impressed."

My personality type is supposed to be super self-confident. In some ways, I am, but I definitely don't come off that way. So, pretty much everyone in my life is surprised by this whole thing. And that makes me just that much more determined to have an awesome time, because I'm "extremely independent and strong-willed," apparently.

Anyway, what else? Oh, I've started on Wellbutrin. My doctor said to wean off the Citalopram for a week and start the Bupropion after a few days off meds, but since I have "unyielding decisiveness" and a natural distrust of authority, I decided to decrease the Citalopram and start the Bupropion at the same time, until I run out of Citalopram.

I'm already feeling better. I hung out with a couple of good friends this weekend and I was my old funny, quick-witted self. I haven't been that woman in a while, so that felt great.

I've also been to talk to a therapist a couple of times, and we're working on a plan to get me out of my funk. It includes trying to get more sleep and spending less time in bed. And working out even if I don't really feel like it.

And tomorrow, I'm going to Oklahoma City for a SCORE physical. I'll be meeting with a dietician and everything. I'm planning on starting the great transformation after that. In five months, hopefully I'll be more fit and more confident and ready to really cut loose in London.

I'll get back to you on that.